The reason I decided to start this blog is because I would like to share my experiences when it comes to reaching my dream...if I ever do reach it. My dream is to become an actress, singer, songwriter, dancer, etc. Don't we all dream that, right? Who knows, it just might happen. Even though my odds are pretty slim, I believe that anything can be achieved with hard work, discipline, and faith.
I have regrets, but crying over them won't change my past. My biggest regret is spending all of my life being ridiculously shy. That's been my biggest curse. I can't expect to become a star being shy right? Trust me, I'm working on that! I wasn't always shy though. Back in Mexico I would participate in anything that had to do with a stage. I wasn't afraid to speak my mind no matter what. At the age of five I was already a performer. One of my uncles organized birthday parties for children and I was one of the acts imitating Selena. I gave it my all =). Wherever we went that had some kind of dancing contest, I would participate winning every time.
When we first moved back to the United States, I was still not shy at all. I attended a bilingual school up until the fifth grade. That's when I changed. Even though I was forcing myself to learn English faster, it was very intimidating. I became more and more quiet. Kids would make fun of me because I couldn't reply most of the time, so it got to me. By middle school I was a whole different person. Not only was the language barrier to blame but the school district I attended was not very friendly and it was full of bullies, which made it harder for a child to develop into everything they can be. I was able to participate in the pep squad for a while, until our money allowed it. Uniforms were pretty expensive. I wanted to participate in other performing arts but never did again. High school came along, and even though my English had been perfected by then, it was very hard for me to get out of my shell again. I finally got the courage to try out for the dancing team in my sophomore year but my mom was so overprotective that she didn't allow me. Then I got a part time job and that was the end of that. I no longer had time to be in any extracurricular activity in school. Dancing has always been in my blood so I would spend my free time recording performances I liked on TV and teaching myself.
College came along and my time was even tighter than before. I became a huge belly dance fan and taught myself how to dance it through the internet and manage to join a belly dance dance team in my sophomore year of college. It lasted only one semester but I learned so much and it reminded me how much I loved the stage. I took a choir course, and even though I love to sing, I was still too shy to do my best and ended up dropping it. Last year I was able to join another belly dance group and we had several performances which helped me a lot more.
So here I am now. I'm tired of my shyness stopping me from doing what I love and I am ready to overcome it. I know some people might think it's too late since I haven't really had any real experience before now. I sucked at Speech Class because I couldn't stop stuttering when I presented in front of the class, so how can I even be a true performer? Well, I decided I wasn't going to wait any longer. If it is not now, then never! October of 2010 I signed up for my very first acting classes. I was freaking out!!!! But I did it and loved it. I made a short student film for practice and slowly but surely, my shyness is fading =) I am currently taking beginners method acting lessons and I'm getting better every time! I auditioned for a small part in a web series and I actually got it and had the opportunity to film it a few weeks ago. I was told the character I played will be back a few episodes later. It's going to take a lot of hard work and dedication but I'm willing to go all the way!!!! I don't care how hard I have to work for this! This is what I want to do and I won't stop even though I might not be that great at it now. I just know I will become great!!! =) Hopefully I can prove it to you guys, if there is anyone reading this! =)
WOW...and I said I wasn't going to go into much detail...
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