I haven't gotten an email with the information for this weeks filming of Single Daddies. I'm beginning to wonder if they changed their mind. When I talked to the lady in charge yesterday asked me for my email and said she would be emailing me the script. She also said that if the pilot gets picked up, the pay would be $100 per day. I thought it was very low for a costar in a show that has been picked up by a network, but what was I supposed to say to that? I just replied with an ok, and she sounded a bit surprised that I said ok so quickly. I'm beginning to think that maybe realized how inexperienced I am and decided to select someone else. I just feel like I am in no position to demand higher pay at this point and I would be lucky just being a part of the project. I'm so nervous...I already told all my friends that I got the part. I don't know if I should call them. If I don't get an email by tomorrow I will.
By the way, I got an email about the Skunk Ape audition. They decided not to go with me for the role and are offering me a smaller part. Ugh! Don't know if I should take it...but it's better than nothing so I think I'll say yes to it. Either way, I can't let my head grow by a few nice comments from some people. I have to get everything I can and build up my resume. Yes, I will take the part!
I don't know why I'm feeling so down. I mean, I have been trying to prepare myself for the worst so that disappointment won't keep me from continuing to chase my dream! I keep searching in Wikipedia for actresses to learn how they got where they are today and at what age, and to see what they were doing by the time they were my age. The more I research, the more it motivates me, but at the same time I feel like I should have accomplished so much more by now and I'm running out of time. The shortest time it had taken someone to break into the business is approximately 4 or 5 years, so that means I would be 28 the youngest to actually make it, if I ever do and if it happens fast! I mean most of these people started since they were in high school minimum, and me...well, I'm super late! So probably would take even longer than the average!
I'm trying to break a record though. I want to prove that with enough determination and practice I can get there soon even though I didn't start when I was like 5 years old.
I keep getting discouraged though. Day before yesterday I was out with my bf and he made a comment again about me getting job. It made me feel like he didn't believe in me. I got upset because I don't ask him for anything. I take care of myself. I understand he worries but I know what I'm doing. Today he was telling me about all the different stuff I could audition for so it made me feel better, but at this point, it is very easy to get discouraged.
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