The day after the audition was the worst day ever!!! I couldn't move at all without pain. I was and still am sore all over my body. It's a bit better today but the day after, I couldn't move at all. So now I just wait. Let's see what happens.
I just got a response from a girl that I asked for advice on youtube and I'm a little sad by it. She was just being honest and trying to help but it put me down a bit. She pointed out that I need to work on my dialect which I knew but I was hoping I was getting better. Sometimes I feel like I'm not going to get anywhere with this. Like I'm just never going to be good enough. Am I just wasting my time? Ugh! I don't know. Well, I'm going to put off on my auditions for a bit anyway because we are going through some difficult times right now. My aunt that I talked about on my last blog passed away and we are trying to find a way to make it to Miami.
Thanks for being so honest and sharing your thoughts here. Sorry to hear about your aunt's death. Feast on your memories of her until you meet her again in the place where no shadows fall.
ReplyDeleteFor what it's worth, I think that you're doing pretty well on the auditions front in terms of your performances - from what I've seen on youtube - and I've no quibbles about your accents. Add your singing and dancing to your acting and I think that you are a great all-rounder.
Don't let any insecurites, fears and doubts overwhelm you. There is a bright sun behind that cloud, and it'll make an appearance to you sooner than you think, and no sooner than you deserve.
Stay Special!!
Dennis x
Thank you very much for your sweet words. They really helped me because I was feeling very down and insecure. It makes a huge difference when one person tells you something like this...it's like you're not wasting your time, you know?
ReplyDeleteAgain, thank you and for your comment about my aunt. I really appreciate it!